A need for kindness…

Will you join me in sprinkling a lil more kindness today?

You never know how a kind word, a kind gesture, or a kind expression can affect another person.

rb2I would also like to invite you to join me on Facebook…  We have a small but mighty lil mastermind of love, kindness, and appreciation on The Gratitude Movement – which celebrates monthly FREE International Virtual Events called 29 Days of Gratitude.

We invite you to join us anytime. ;-)

Love you,

La Shamanessa, Rosangel lil wolf Perez

Pray with me. 

Let there be peace on earth and let it begin with me… 

I have been extremely silent with my words. I have barely written in the past five months… 

Like many of you, I have been wearing a very heavy heart as I observe the wars, the chaos, the rage, the tensions, and fighting all around us. 

There is need everywhere. 

Need for food. Need for housing. Need for equality. Need for more money. Need for peace. Need for love. And these are just a few examples. 

It’s heart breaking to see the fighting, to see people so afraid of each other, to witness the division between families, races, cultures, men and women, the young and old. The us verses them.  

Who yields?

What’s the soulution?

Things are not okay!!! 

We are in a crisis.

How can we get back to love? 

How can we begin to start making some of these things right?

All I have are these words right now.   But if you are reading these words. I invite you to pause and pray with me. 

Let’s call forth a blessing of love and peace for our whole world and for all of our brothers and sisters.  Let hold our earth in our minds eye and visualize a happy healthy abundant planet where there is harmony and a balance of life between all peoples and all the living. 

We can go there together. We can co-create this place where heaven exists. 

We can begin heaven on earth by starting with ourselves… by looking for ways to be more peaceful, by intending more awareness, mindfulness, and compassion in our moment to moment existence, by looking for what’s beautiful in every moment. These simple steps can create profound shifts in the way we relate to our world. 

Thank you for sharing this moment with me. 

Angel Blessings,  


La Shamanessa, Rosangel lil wolf Perez  – Visionary, Host of Cafecito Break & Community Relations Director for Churches United for Fair Housing

I believe that love is stronger than death… 

A small reminder about the power of love.   

Facing 40…

I’m almost 40 and I can’t believe it… So many things on my mind. How quickly time passes by…And I have so much more to do… And no I don’t feel old. I’m feeling wiser and sexier and younger than ever. And also scared as fuck.

The voice of the 40+ woman is always portrayed as old and boring in popular culture. But I’ll share a lil secret, I feel more like a woman in my close approach to 40 than I ever have. I feel more alive and sexier and more sensual and confident than ever. And there’s no one that can tell me what is best for me than me.

So… I’m welcoming myself into this beautiful decade. And I intend to embrace it with more passion and pleasure. I’ve worked my ass off in this life. Now it’s time for this goddess to live the best life for me and my voice and my most authentic expression. I intend to make my 40’s the sexiest most pleasurable most “unapologetically me” years of my life.

Here’s to love and beauty and self acceptance.

Who cares if mainstream society thinks I’m old?!!!

I’m feeling like the most delicious yummy goddess ever. And this is what counts. So ladies, Love your skin. Wear it with pleasure. Love your imperfections and know that you are a work of God and you are not old. You are only wiser and yummier and beautiful and radiant!

Here’s to the awakening woman! I love you! – la shamanessa, Rosangel Perez

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Why Monday is a Holy Day…

You want to know what living life to the fullest actually is? It’s waking up on a monday morning with no complaints. It’s knowing you always deserve to laugh. It’s doing what feels right no matter what. It’s doing what you want to no matter how stupid you look. It’s about being yourself, because no one can tell you you’re doing it wrong. ~ Bernajoy Vaal

When I was a lil girl, I dreaded Mondays

When I was a teenager… I still dreaded Mondays.
When I started to work, I dreaded Monday Mornings even more.

I started to hate Monday Mornings…
Just the thought of Monday Morning would make my stomach turn sour.
My anxieties would spike up as I contemplated my million “to dos”,
work conversations left unfinished, and meetings upon meetings to plan and attend.

My inner sense would tell me… “this doesn’t feel right”
this doesn’t seem like the way humans were meant to live.
This feels too repetitive, constrictive, too much of a routine…

YUCK!!! my soul felt caged
It felt like I couldn’t really breathe

I mean, why do other people have other schedules?
I started to wonder about how other people led their lives.
What did they do?
How come they were not rushing to work and headed to a cafe?

And one day I dreamed as I was hurrying into the subway, that I would have Mondays off
that I would have an easy lazy start to a Monday Morning
and sit in cafes
and lead a SLOWER healthier paced life.

Many teased. Some laughed. Others mocked me, “Yeah right.”

But I insisted…
If this is my life and I’m the creator of it, then I could create a schedule with
Mondays off…

And I did….
For four years
Monday has been my Holy Day.

This day is for me.
This day is for creativity.
This day is for my passions.
This day is for silence.
This day is for me to self indulge.

It’s a day of beauty, slowness, and pleasures.

It’s also my tech free day.
oooh… how that pisses so many people off!!!

Monday Morning is my CAFECITO BREAK DAY.
Since 2012 I have been producing a Podcast called “Cafecito Break”, “Empowering the Voice of the Awakening Woman”. We have shared over 88 shows on topics such as love, beauty, awakening, truths, new realities, and more.

I invite you to take a lil break on Monday Morning and listen to a podcast I co-create with a tribe of beautiful women, which include my sisters Alex Perez and Ruthie Guten.

Dreams really can come true. They take time and a lot of work. But it’s happening and I am celebrating every HOLY moment. http://www.cafecitobreak.com/

I love you…
La Shamanessa, Rosangel Perez
Visionary & Host of Cafecito Break

MK-ULTRA and Project Monarch – with Roseanne Barr

Why have I been chosen to deliver the message of female intelligence and its divinity to a deaf world of males? I have asked my god that question and She answered, ‘Hey, why not you Roseanne?’ Indeed, why not each of us?

Roseanne Barr

Cafecito Break Featured on Podbean

Saludos beautiful souls, we wanted to share some good news…Our podcast, CAFECITO BREAK is one of four FEATURED podcasts this week on Podbean: http://www.podbean.com/
Ruthie, Alex, and I are filled with gratitude and thank our Cafecito Break community.

“Cafecito Break” is a podcast, Empowering the Voice of the Awakening Woman. Since 2012, we have created over 88 shows on a variety of topics such as  love, ancient wisdsom, pleasure, spirituality, relationships, truths, and more. We talk about topics some consider taboo or controversial.

At Cafecito Break we say, “Let’s start a conversation” and that’s what we do…

Live every Monday Morning at 11am, Ruthie Guten and I invite you to join us in our Virtual Living Room space for a Cafecito conversation rooted in love.

Cafecito Break represents a life long dream for me. Life made it sweeter by allowing me to co-create this show alongside Health Engineer Ruthie Guten and my Green Brujita sister Alex Perez.

We interview experts from a variety of fields who live authentic empowering lives and share their wisdom thru our podcasts.

We’ve got some amazing shows coming up for 2015.

On behalf of our small Cafecito Break team, we would like to ask you to support your sisters by sharing, subscribing, and offering a review. ;-)

To listen to our show archives visit CAFECITO BREAK at http://www.cafecitobreak.com/

You can also find us on ITUNES – “CAFECITO BREAK”.

For show ideas or guest suggestions, please email us at cafecitobreaknyc@gmail.com

We love you!

Thank you for your kindness!
Rosangel Perez of Cafecito Break

Surrendering to the Mystery…

Diving into the chaos the unseen the darkness the mystery I CAN’T FIGHT THIS ANYMORE I have to allow it to take me…

I surrender… Ride me Chew me Break me into pieces I AM NO LONGER AFRAID OF THE DARKNESS I will face you I will face me I will and I can FIND MY WAY BACK Love will guide me to where I need to be Love doesn’t need to see Love already knows the way Here’s to one hell of an adventure. Let the mystery ride me, chew me, break me… As long I stand in my truth, I will always be free. -la shamanessa #loveliveshere

A time for prayer is indeed upon us…

My dear brothers and sisters…

My message carries a certain urgency,
a call…
an ask for you to evoke prayer.

Evoke prayers for healing, for peace, for love, for harmony…

Evoke prayer for grace.
Evoke prayer for humanity, for protection over our minds,
our hearts,
our souls.

we are at war…
many different versions of a war

each and everyone of us,
we may be going thru some “shit”

Many of us are facing our greatest challenges
Our greatest despair…

we may want to give up…
But something always carries us a lil bit further…

I know many times I feel this way.
Many times when I wake up and I realize I’m still here on earth,
the despair that I feel in the morning, its hard to describe…

but every day when I rise,
I remind myself that THIS IS AN ILLUSION…
And I feel the fire of love burning through me

I see visions of happy people
and I realize that I can co-create another reality…
that I can choose LOVE and Kindness
that I can choose to walk outside and offer a smile to someone
buy a cup of coffee for my neighbor…
or go out and meditate at the park.

Let us call upon the greater benevolent forces.

Evoke your guides
Evoke the angels
Evoke love

And watch beautiful miracles unfold.



la shamanessa

Feeling Sexy, Holy, and Dangerous

It’s time for me to take off any remaining masks
And the masks that remain
Are the masks I consider my most vulnerable

You see, I have the desire to be sexy
To feel sexy
To live sexy

I have a desire to merge my holiness with my sensuality
To walk the streets of Williamsburg Brooklyn chanting and playing my shamanic drum

I have a desire
To be unapologetic about who I am

I am
The woman who feels like a priestess
The woman who feels like a sexy wild cat
The woman who finds ecstasy in
Merging Sex and Spirit and Dancing

I am
The woman who’s tired of rules that

I am
The woman who’s had enough of other people projecting shit and fears unto me
The woman who says No More!!!
The woman who is fucking tired of repeating herself
When I say I don’t want to be bothered,
Respect my fucking space!

I don’t need to be rescued
I don’t need to be saved
I don’t need to be coddled
I don’t need to be inhaled when you are near me!
Stop trying to suck my air space

I am and will never be who you want me to be.

I am
A free spirit
I can never be contained!
Shame on you for trying to do so!

I feel edgy
And perhaps a bit dangerous
Pandoras box has opened

Some truths need to be shared
Some truths need to be expressed
And I don’t wanna die
With these feeling inside of me

The voice of this awakening woman
Right Now.

~la shamanessa – your Brooklyn girl

Wild Woman

Not in the “girls gone wild” party up all night and get drunk kinda way


In a way
where you feel her …

Wild woman
She’s instinctual
She’s sensual
She’s senses it all
She is one with
The all knowing place…

The unapologetic primal girl
Allowing herself
To feel
and dance off every emotion

She’s fearless
She’s daring

She transforms
She shape shifts

She becomes her

One with her inner divinity

one with her body

One with…
Wild woman



An endangered creature

Wild Woman rises now.

Ah oooo ;)

-lil wolf

Censored World…

Censored words
Isolated in teeny spaces
Censored expressions
that ache for freedom
Censored people
Dying a bit more each day

The censored lives we lead
Keep us disconnected
from ourselves
From our feelings
From expressing real emotion

Censored love
Censored vibrations

Fake world
Fake news
Fake music
Fake love
Fake food
Fake medicine

Yet the masses live in this fake world.

We have been fooled.

We are in a war.

Proclaim your expression!

La Shamanessa

The Dark Night of the Soul…

Maybe she is
Maybe she isn’t

Maybe she does
Maybe she does not

Maybe she needs to pause
and allow rest to set in

Maybe she needs to allow
the darkness to come upon her
and swallow her alive

Maybe she needs to get lost
Maybe she needs to be wild

Maybe she needs to visit the pit of hell
where she will fight all sorts of demons…

demons with pretty faces
demons with pretty words
demons with flashy things
demons with indecent intentions
demons that want to take
what doesn’t belong to them.

Here, she will face all her fears
And she will feel lost and forgotten
As she delves deeper into an abyss
of seemingly unchartered waters…

She will cry
She will rage
She will fight
She will be broken down

This is
where she will live for a while

until she can see
until she can hear
until she can feel
until she is ready…

to stand in darkness with the poise of a flower and the stance of a warrior.


The dark night of the soul,
where she must be vigilant
and allow her heart to embrace the darkness
and her inner senses to be her guide

If she survives this journey,
the woman that returns
is almost unrecognizable

she is someone new.

She is warrior.
She is a goddess.

~La Shamanessa, Rosangel Perez

Beauty is God’s Handwriting…

Walk with me…

and allow your senses to fill you

take everything you see into and unto you

embrace that flower

become one with it

inhale her…

but don’t touch her

feel her aroma

sense her

what do you feel?

What do you see?

Blessed are your eyes

to have the pleasure of witnessing such beauty

in that pause…

you are

merging with that flower…

you are one…

just like

you and I…

we are





Never lose an opportunity of seeing anything beautiful, for beauty is God’s handwriting.” ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

There is also beauty…

Can you feel it?

In the midst of this great chaos,

there is also a grand awakening…

it’s here…  it’s subtle.  it’s beautiful

it is

teasing you

tempting you…

luring you in…

for a dance

feel it?

breathe it in…



it’s all around you


just as there is chaos…

there is also beauty

I don’t share this often but..

I love to dance every day.

Dancing is a way I meditate,

the way I dream,

the way I journey,

the way I imagine.

Dancing is a way I manifest…


Happy Holy Sensual Awakening New Year

For wild woman

her time is now

to express


what are you waiting for?


It is time to leave your cocoon


be you…





Here’s to more pleasure!

Happy New Year!

~la shamanessa

Let’s talk about love

Is that all a girl thinks about?

No :-/

I must admit
I’ve always been a hopeless romantic
But now I’m a hopeful one

I used to believe in lies and deceitful ways
Now I’m intoxicated with being holy
With myself
With my sacred other

I have always believed in this higher magical intoxicating power of love.

I’ve chased it my whole life
And most if my life
It’s run away from me

Perhaps no more chasing
Perhaps time to yield
And call love onto me
And upon me
Let love envelope me
With that juicy warm glow

here’s to love…


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Love is the only Truth… Let’s go there together

My journal entry for 29 Days of For Give Ness

I forgive you for your subtle comments ever so accepted by society that remind me that I’m in this Latina brown skin…

Does my color remind you of servitude?

I am here in service but not to be anyone’s servant.

No one is more than I.
Nor I more than anyone else.

We are blood and bones.
Brothers and sisters in this glorious rainbow.

I forgive myself for every time I allowed offensive comments to play in my psyche and dance and dance in my head and mess with me.

I forgive the anger I would feel every time you would remind me, “speak English, we’re in America”

Shame on you!
Shame on me!

I forgive myself for allowing comments like these to take me away from expressing my mother tongue… Español

I forgive myself for surrendering to the English pronunciation of my name.

I forgive myself for allowing myself to feel small in your presence.

I am grateful though…

You have been a mirror
and a great teacher.

For in this contrast I am learning to love myself.
And accept myself

And I have realized
that I don’t need to reflect
back to you.

And I don’t want to.

Because this leaves me feeling

And when I look at my surroundings all I see is pain and suffering and madness.

This is not life! This is not living!
This is fear.
This is hate…

Where is the love?

I want to look
into your eyes,
hold your hand and tell you
“I forgive you.”

To make it simple…
I want love
I want to give love
I want to be loved
I want to feel love
I want to see love

I want a return to kindness…
A return to love

And I know I’m not the only one feeling this way…

Love is the only truth

Let’s go there together.


Thank you.



Join us on The Gratitude Movement for 29 Days of For Give Ness

In Need of a Breath… Our latest Cafecito Podcast

How do we make sense of the Eric Garner Case? So the officer who performed an illegal chokehold was not prosecuted, but the man who shot the video was?

How do we talk to our family and the kids who struggle make sense of the daily injustices we face? Eric Garners last words, “I can’t breathe”, are words many of us resonate with.
Recorded earlier… We invite you to listen to the most powerful Cafecito Break Podcast yet… with Rosangel Perez & Ruthie Guten with Special Guest, Darryl Aiken-Afam


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About Darryl: Founder of Meridian Touch, “The Art of Letting Go”

Born in Chicago and refined in Brooklyn, Darryl Aiken-Afam has over 25 years experience in the fitness, movement, healing and martial arts worlds. He is an active lecturer on Oriental Medicine & Movement and Meridian Exercise theory, and has spoken at Northwestern University, the University of Illinois at Chicago’s Kinesiology Department, and also at various training, fitness and dance centers in the US and abroad.

For more information, please visit, http://www.meridiantouch.com/

Join Rosangel Perez & Ruthie Guten every Monday at 11am for a Live Cafecito Break Chat.

Learn more: Rosangel’s blog: http://lashamanessa.com/

Ruthie Guten: http://www.ruthieguten.com/

Against the Wall and in need of a BREATH

I allowed myself to watch the entire Eric Garner video
my memory haunts me as I witness another brother die…
I almost can’ t handle the collective pain I am feeling…
I can only imagine the pain of my brothers
and sisters
so the police didn’t get prosecuted,
but the man who shot the video did?

Am I living in some kind of nightmare?

It feels like it is.

I find myself almost wanting to give up
I find myself needing, seeking, looking for a FEMININE Presence… someone who embodies the holiness of our DIVINE MOTHER…

where is she? because I need her.  I need to collapse in her arms.  I want to cry as she holds me… I feel so scared and disillusioned at the same time.

oh wait! she’s here..
as I write these words, I feel a subtle shift
she hears me,
“shhhh… I’m here dear one.”

and I cry
the world feels so unsafe
so uncertain
so upside down…

I don’t know what to say to my brothers and sisters

and the children…
they have so many questions
so many things that they point out to us… the adults.

the children who are desperately looking for guidance, inspiration and love… What the fuck!!!

we were supposed to be making a better world for them…!

we are up against the wall.

and the big question is…

will you choose love or fear?


I need to choose love… got a feeling MY LIFE depends on it.

here’s.to evoking peace
here’s to sharing the collective breath
here’s to evoking the presence of our holy mother
here’s to our exhale

– la shamanessa

#loveliveshere #29daysofforgiveness #whatdowetellthechildren #wecanbreathe

We Can Breathe….

Originally posted on Cafecito Break - with Rosangel Perez:

Set an intention for World Wide For Give Ness..

Another tough week for humanity…

Another tough week being in this skin. I feel disheartened in ways that make my heart ache.

I’ve been at a loss for words this week trying to make sense of the many injustices in our world… and searching for for give ness…

My nephew is 12 years old and attends East Side in NYC. Their school is organizing a march in support of Michael Brown and Eric Garner.

he invited me to go…
“We invite the families to join us for the march and help us make it clear that a change is necessary.” –

After I read these words, I cried like a mama mourning the loss of her sons. What do I tell my niece and nephew? What do we tell our children who are our future keepers of this earth? How do…

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